Restless mind. A restless heart. Fighting for stability and security. For grounded-ness.
Cleanse.
Process.
Release…
What is the desire you are attempting to attain? The void I feel is desperately trying to fill itself; the cup wants to be filled and overflown. Though at this time, it should sit.
The heartbreak sinks. I am inclined to fill the void, to find one to take the space that has opened up. Though that will only create a loop and prolong the growth that needs to take place. I feel that I need to sit with the longing.
Feel it.
Embrace it.
Seep into the void.
The cup shall remain empty for now. Until ready to be filled again.
Understand what is happening, what went wrong, and learn from the mistakes. Reflect, find the lessons, and apply. By jumping directly into another pattern, another cycle of behaviors, I prevent myself from growing. I fall back into the same cycle rather than spiraling out…
Take a breath.
The closed circle
The wheel is doomed to relive the same cycles over and over. Round and round. The same ups, the same downs. In a closed circle, we allow patterns to be re-lived. We allow the same story to play out. The characters may have changed, with fresh subplots and added novelty. Perhaps the story takes place in a different environment: in a small mountain town traded in for a coastal city, summer rather than winter...
However, the situation will remain the same. With no lessons learned, tripping over the same rock. Slipping over the same sheet of ice… over & over & over again.
Trapped in an eternal hell.
To break free, we must spiral out.
The open circle
An open circle has no end. It continuously expands as it spirals outward. Each time around, encountering the same situation but from a slightly higher (or lower) vantage point. Providing enough perspective and foresight to avoid the same mistake. Enough understanding to step over the same rock, only to encounter the next obstacle.
Improving little by little each time. Slowly progressing through each cycle. Even though the lows may be lower, the highs will equally be higher. Expanding each time. Presenting us with greater challenges so we may gain deeper lessons to help us overcome even greater obstacles.
Until someday, we may break free.
That is why I must sit in the void. Sit with the mistakes and the falls of the past. To not trip over the rock again. The time calls for me to dust off and polish the cup to make it shine once again.
Do not fill the void. Not yet. The time for the filled glasses to be raised will arrive before long. Until then, we wait and grow.
Venus ♀︎ will be absent from the sky (passing between the Earth and the Sun) in the days to come. Live with the absence of her love. Avoid seeking her love from the outside. As she is within the beams of the Sun☉, cultivate the love that can be found inside ourselves.
Blessings,
Marcos Del Valle